Randomly typing what i'm thinking and feeling right now

Feeling :|

Tbh , i'm not sure how to explain this feelings . And idk to whom i should vent my anger to . Idk what to feel . It's that feeling of tiredness . You get tired of everything . Sometimes , i just asked myself , where has the cheerful Ain gone to ? Where's my lame jokes , where's my lame questions ? I'm known to be the funniest , cheerful , lamest , naughty girl during my primary - nitec life . I love to laugh . But , I'm not sure what has happen to me , as it doesn't happens overnight . But i know , all this changes that happened to me comes for a reason . I may not know the true reason , but i'm always grateful for this changes . If not for this changes , i think i would've gone astray . Alhamdulillah (:

Thinking that school is gonna reopen next week , i'm trying my best to be physically and mentally prepared . Physically : NAPFA test is coming ! D: Mentally , test and exams is coming up . (: I won't put on high expectation on myself . But that does not mean i can totally forget about studies . I just cant pressurize my brain too much . Haha ! Weird right ? If i were to pressurize my brain too much , my mind will go haywired and i'll get sick easily . When i'm stress , i tend to eat a lot till my cheeks become chubby . Hahaha ! And .. i'm so not ready for school reopen . But i'll try to be more consistent and be more attentive in class (: In shaa Allah , Amin ! (:

He's sick . Lately he hasn't been in the pink of health , which worries me most . What I could do is to pray for him . It reminds me of the past . How much i used to care about my ex when he's sick . I'll be the one who panics , trying to ease his pain , just do anything for him . And now it is happening again .

There's a limit for everything . I know , i cant love people if i cant love Allah first . He's my first priority . In shaa Allah , pray for us (': Semoga Allah merestui hubungan kita . In shaa Allah , Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin !