Overthinking
Overthinking kills me slowly but surely ...
Every sickness have a cure (:
Only Death doesn't .........................
My heart feels so heavy and i don't feel at peace .. And the main reason for this is , my mind and my heart is battling in this war . Haha ! My mind told me to study , but my heart told me to rest . Exam is just around the corner . Sometimes i scold myself for procrastinating . It's just not a good time to procrastinate .
"Only me , myself and i can create how my future looks like"
As i reflect back , if only i didn't procrastinate during my secondary school and primary school days , i know would have achieved much more better grades . Landing up in Normal Academic stream with an aggregate of 176 makes me ponder , if i were to add 10 more points to my grade , i would have landed myself in Express stream . & i think right now , i will be in Poly .
T.T
Again , another disappointment when i received my N level certificate . Alhamdulillah for that , but i know i'm capable of achieving better results .
I passed all my subjects . Alhamdulillah . If only i put in enough effort in my maths , i would have landed myself in Higher Nitec .
My subjects | Grades
English | 3
Combined Humanities | 3
Mathematics | 5
Combined Science | 5
Malay | 2
Malay Aural | Distinction
Art | 3
When was this ? Oh , 2010 ! Hehehe ! My ELMAB3 was 17 .
p/s : If my Maths get grade 4 , i will be able to go Higher Nitec .
So many chances ! But i risk everything ! D: Procrastination at it's best !
I was promoted to Sec 5 , but i chose to go to a different path because i wanna try something new . I chose the route called ITE . Kinda regret , but well , we can't undo what has been done . I opted for a more longer path , so i could discover my talent and capabilities . I enrolled myself in Nitec in Applied Food Science . Realising that NITEC is more to hands-on , i asked myself this .
"Why must i risk my own future when the actual fact is i'm actually good in theory , but not good in practical wise ?"
I tried my best , and i excel in my CCA , Student Council . I was promoted to an Exco in WellBeing . Alhamdulillah . (:
But , i couldn't cope between my studies and CCA . I focus more on CCA than studies as i couldn't multitask at the same time .
So , i graduated from College East , with a good GPA to enter Higher Nitec . Hehe (: Currently , i'm pursuing in Higher NITEC in Information System Quality Assurance . Jyeahhhhhhh ~ HAHAHAHAH ! *Alhamdulillah*
My future , this will be my next step to enter Poly . So i set this in my mind , if i study hard now , and end up in a good course in poly , i'm going to promise myself that i will do my best in everything that i do . *pinkypromise*
My future , in shaa Allah , Diploma in Nautical Studies / Maritime Business , here i come ! :D
Amin !
#motivatingmyself