Unwelcomed Thoughts

Assalamualaikum !

Honestly i've never felt this way , in fact it has been so long since i last felt this way .

It's you that i've always prayed for ... And my prayers have been answered . What is all this that is happening in my life ? Fate or just conincidence ? Idk myself too ... *sighs*

You were there to advise and guided me when i'm in the wrong . You were there , listening to all my rants . You claimed that you're lame , and i'm lame too . And instantly , the thought settled in , "Hey , maybe you're the one for me ?" . Why must all this be happening now ? I don't understand . It's when i'm indirectly attached to someone that you came back .

I never thought it would be this bad ...

A friend told me , "Hey , he may be talking to his friend , but from his body language , i can see that he wants to talk to you . I can tell .."

He was less than 10 metres away from me , so i tried my best to ignore him . Coz idw this "zina hati" to happen .. I kept eating and told my best guyfriend to shift his standing position everytime he moves so that he won't be able to see me . Idk if he saw me .. But my heart strongly agrees with my brain that he knew i was there , he wants to talk to me but he decided not to when he saw my friends was with me . His aura is just so strong ..

My prayers to all the person that i care and love .. Ya Allah , kau permudahkanlah segala urusan orang yang aku sayang , kau lindungilah orang yang aku sayang , kau berilah kesabaran dan ketabahan kepada orang yang aku sayang . Kau bimbingilah orang yang aku sayang ke jalanMu , ya Allah . Amin ...

If i ever see him again , maybe a smile is the best i could offer . In shaa Allah .

Goodnight and Assalamualaikum ...

This is ME

Assalamualaikum wr wb ~

This is me . I overthink frequently . I'm complicated . I'm very unpredictable . When i'm sad , i can't think straight . Idk what's wrong with me nowadays . I'll get annoyed when the person that i expect understands me the most , is the person that doesn't understand me at times . I'm very egoistic , and that somehow annoys me as well .

Current Thoughts

1. My Exam Results

So stress and worried over my results . I think i do well for M5 but obviously not M6 . If i could recalled , before the exam , my lecturer for M6 gave us a mock exam , i did good enough , Alhamdulillah . You know that feeling when you did good , you instantaneously feel good . Yeah , i still remembered how i felt back then . I thought the exam paper would be at the same level as the mock exam paper . But i was so wrong . I did studied for my M6 , but i didn't study all of it . Tell me which student would remember all the points . Not me ofc . I remembered the points that my lecturer told me is important . And when i attempt the exam paper , i can say 25% of the things that is important is on the paper . So guys , do you understand how i feel ?

Polytechnic .. Ermmm .. Choosing of the courses ..

I love sailing , yes you can guess what course that i'm interested in . Nautical Studies . I'm not sure if im able to answer the interview questions . And the test . I badly want to get into this course so badly . D: I don't like the courses that involves programming . I'm weak in it . I love the stuff that guys usually loves . Second , maritime business . Yes , i love to be in the maritime sector . Third , Digital Forensics . Forth and fifth choices .. still clueless . :|